Today. I woke up just before the sun went down.
Today. I was lucky just to find my way around.
Cause yesterday, I couldn't find a reason why
I shouldn't get drunk, and let life pass me by.
Today. I question why I'm alive.
Today. I wonder why God didn't let me die.
Cause yesterday, I decided it was time
to drink like I was down to my last dime.
Today. I stand here in the bathroom shower.
Today. I'm pissed cause I was too much of a coward.
Cause yesterday. I made the clear choice.
that I would not be here today. No longer a voice.
Today. I can't but wonder why.
Today. God! Why didn't you let me die?
Cause yesterday, I was so aware it was time
to drink like I was down to my last dime.
Today. I am alive. Damn! I can tear up this written goodbye.
Yesterday. I convinced myself no one would cry
knowing that I would not be here... today.
What could You have wanted me to do yesterday
so that You kept me alive until today?
Every day?
Today, I have to wonder why
I am here to write these words good-bye.
Knowing You won't let me die
cause everyday is yesterday. Not today.
Like "Groundhog Day".
Goodbye... Until tomorrow. Or is it yesterday. Or is it today?
Again.....
